I don't think homesick quite covers it. I've been here almost 9 months and almost every night when I waitress people ask me if I like it here, when they find out I'm from CA and "new" to the area.... my answer is always "I don't really know, I don't have time to find out, I work 3 jobs."
Well, right now, I'm kinda leading toward... not really. Why am I here? I definitely felt God closing doors in SLO, and considering that I had one part time job here before I even left CA, and a second one 9 days in, I definitely felt like this was where I was supposed to be.
However, I thought that by now, I would be teaching full time, not still subbing and waitressing.
All this working also leaves not a lot of time for a social life or making friends... not what I'm used to in my life.
Put all this together and you have one homesick girl! Well, luckily Southwest had a sale and I get to fulfill a promise that I've been making all year, that I would be home for graduation for a few of my favorite girls. I'll be home for two weeks (June 9-24) and hopefully I will be able to soak up enough hugs, friends, family and beach time to last me a few more months.
Please pray for me as each day here gets harder and harder. I don't have time to make friends...even if I had friends I don't have a lot of time of to spend with them. I know that physically and emotionally I can not do this another year. So if I don't get hired for full time teaching, then I will have to find something else to do. It is too hard to waitress until 11, 12, 1... and then come home, sleep for 3-5 hours and then sub all day, and then waitress again that night. I just can't do it! So pray that I will either get hired for teaching, a door will open to move back home, or that God will show me where HE wants me next year, b/c right now, I'm not feeling too good about it all.
Love and miss you all so much! Be prepared for GINORMOUS bear hugs!
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Maybe we'll see you while you're around. We come up every so often to collect more stuff or bring stuff back. Sorry you don't have permanent work yet. Will continue to pray for that. Love you.
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